It seems that inspiration is everywhere for my newest book; hanging the walls, expressions on faces, and even in the sound of the plane landing. I never thought that I would be able to hear a monster in the growl of a small propellor plane pressing down onto the tar mat. I could hear the belly of the beasts rumble. I could feel the hungry shiver.
I’d explored the world when I wrote Wicked Soul Ascension. Even though I searched in all the right places nothing seemed to stick. With Wicked up for sale, and the phone calls from friends and family, emails from strangers, pouring in about what they thought about the story, I’ve come to understand that much more about my writing. It affects them each in their own way. While others felt the fear that emanated from the void, some found themselves attached to the realistic characters within the tale.
These comments got me thinking. How did I get the reader engulfed into a story that was all my own imagination? How did they see this world I brought to life?…How did I bring it to life?
I started by taking notice of the things I zoned out on. Small cracks in the floor, the fine lines on the wood, the texture of food on a sign, and even the stray hair that hangs out of a stranger’s nose. Yes, it sometimes gets that weird. After I realize that I am staring at these things, I focus inward. What am I thinking about when I stare at such things? Most of the time it’s a jumble of ideas. A vortex of thoughts that I can’t seem to put together. Other times, it’s a solid thought that I can’t seem to break. It’s these thoughts that I decode. The crack in the floor could be a canon or a scar on someone’s arm. The grains in the wood become a map of roads, trails, or even rivers. Even that awkward nose hair dangling out, wiggling with every exhale, oddly enough can add some inspiration. It adds the realistic touch to characters that not everyone thinks of. Strange, I know. It’s these things that weird people out, that add that tad of gross. It’s these uncomfortable moments that add to the rollercoaster ride through a person’s written imagination.
Dear Caffeine,
I write you today to say goodbye. My doctor says we can’t be together any more. I know one day you will understand. It’s not you it’s me. Don’t cry…it’s hard for me too. You’re just not good for me. Doc says that you hurt me. Please understand that as I write this I am already missing your sweet bold taste, your creamy goodness…maybe he’s wrong…no C.B. snap out of it!
Caffeine you’re bad for me. I can’t stand the pain any longer. Your hot sweet energy can’t be mine any longer. It’s over. No longer will we spend the days together writing in the coffee shops or on the bus or in the mall. No longer will I keel over in pain from your corrosive essence. I wont think about you when I drive by the Tim Hortons, Second Cup , 7-11, McDonald’s, the mall…okay maybe I will No, I will stay strong. I know your thinking your strong enough to take this, and I know your strong and bold and, no! I wont let you get in my head. Goodbye Caffeine. It has to be this way.
Missing you already,
C.B. Dixon
Goodbye forever my sweet Caffeine.
Karma at work:
In line at Tim Hortons to get my coffee, I noticed a elderly woman rummaging through her purse. Her scrunched face and silent curses told me something was up. I walked over and asked if I could help. She had lost her winning coffee rim (a free coffee) in the disaster of her bag. I told her she could find it later, I’d buy her a coffee. She refused. The Tim’s worker called me to the till. I moved forward and called the woman over to join me, I’d ease her pain by giving her a free coffee. It was at that moment she found her winning rim. The woman then walked to the till to order her coffee along side mine. To my surprise she bought me my coffee.
Actions speak louder then words!
When I offered to buy the lady the coffee it wasn’t without great thought. I am short on money now that I’ve paid my editor and I wondered if I could spare the extra bit of cash. I bit my tongue at the thought. I could afford the extra $1.95. If I was really that hurt for cash I wouldn’t be in line about to buy a coffee for myself. I became disgusted by my thoughts. I could buy her a coffee, it would make this person who is obviously upset happy. I let my good intentions take wing. Look what happened when I did. Karma rewarded the actions I had taken. It’s easy to close ourselves off to those around us even when they are right there in front us suffering.
Actions are remembered, no matter how small.
The woman and I walked away with smiles on our faces and a higher respect for the strangers we pass by each day.
Have a great day!
Dear Machine,
How are you these days? I hardly recognize you behind all the new parts you have. You seem to have made it far in this new world we live in. I remember, way back in the day, when you told me of a man that said you were nothing, just a waste of time, that you would never make it. Well my dearest friend, if that man were alive today he’d kick himself for not believing in your unique skills. Your diverse children are spread around the world in the hands, pockets, and on top of heads of people. Some are massive enough to move mountains and others tiny enough that it we need to use a distant cousin to see what that child looks like. From the wheel and axle that help the sick, the healthy, the poor, and the wealthy to the computer at my finger tips. You have family that have made it to space and have allowed us to see in to other galaxies. I always believed in you, I always will.
You’re everywhere and with everyone.
There was a promise made, and a promise broken.
You were born to aid man. Your mother and father dreamed of your future the moment they held you in their hands. What they saw was you working hand-in-hand with man to make life simple and easy so all could live stress free life, and in turn we would take care of you.
Everyday life seems to get more instant and everything seems to be now. I know you feel it too. Life hasn’t become more easy…it’s become a weight that we are crushed by. You get us place to place, connect us to one another, mend us when we’re broken, and yet we haven’t mastered you. We rely on you too much. When all the lights go out we no longer know what to do. We have lost the ability to function without you. Oh my dear friend it seems that we, mankind, have become a part of you. Take a moment. Look around. We have left our symbiotic relationship and entered into host-parasite relationship, you know who is who. What are we to do? Use our heads? Do I even know how to do that anymo…wait let me Google that. Didn’t work, let me ask Siri.
On the lighter side, I’m excited for your new child. I think Hover Board is a great name for the newest addition. I’m excited to invite her over to my place so we can play together. Her older brother Long Board is patently waiting to meet her.
You take care. Reply soon.
Cheers,
C.B. Dixon
P.s. Let’s go back to the beginning. Back to simple. Could we do that?
Have you ever experienced an impulse?
You’ve had to buy that object or eat that sweet or make your move? I’m going to talk about impulsive buying.
I am what people call impulsive. Once something is in my head I can’t get it out. It mostly comes when I want to buy something. If there is an object that I want, it begins to scratch at the inside of my skull and eat away all rational thought. There’s no thought about how much money I have or if I need that thing, I must have it and I need it now.
Well I have a solution to this problem. Yes. And it’s easy. Barricade all funds behind a solid wall and then don’t think about it…yeah right. The answer isn’t easy. I’ve been struggling with my obsessive impulse buys since I got my first allowance. For anyone that has experienced the thought of ‘I must have this!’ is one of the hardest to push away. There is no ‘why’, there is no ‘can I afford it?’ It’s all now and only now.
I will share you what I have done that has helped me. I’m not going to tell you it’s the perfect answer because perfect is an unrealistic word that no one can live up to. This is the path I find the easiest.
First I will explain what I buy. Gadgets. I buy all kinds of technology, from Gameboys to computers. It all started with the first Gameboy, then the Gameboy colour, then the Sony Playstation…it spiralled till I had bought all of it. I never kept the predecessor. I gave them away for free to friends that wanted them or to someone who would use it. Normally I would use it until I bought the next thing. Sometimes I’d buy it, play it for a day, then ditch it to the side. Game systems I used for a day or two before I beae bored and picked up and picked a book.
Now I am about to break my own self destruction.
We don’t need these things to survive. Wants and needs are to separate things. I went about creating a list of things that I want and then circled the things I needed out of the list. One was a MacBook Pro but I already had a Gateway desktop computer that I never used so why would I need another computer. I wrote myself a note on why I would need to have a MacBook. After six pages I decided that if I would like to enhance my writing career then I would need to evolve from my iPad 3 and get an actual computer that would sync with my iPad. There are two novels written on my iPad plus all my author info, my blog posts, every detail of my writing life was on the iPad. I needed consistency that my PC couldn’t give me. Beyond that, I needed a bigger screen, storage space, a web browser that showed me more then the mobile site, and it had to be portable (this being one of the multiple reasons I didn’t use my desktop). I then talked to my husband for his advice. He always gives me his honest opinion. He doesn’t say a blank yes or no, he gives me pros and cons of his answer. Mark told me that I was right. I needed a real computer, not just a tablet, to cary on with my writing.
I went out and found myself a deal. I bought the MacBook Pro with retina display.
People told me, ‘once you go Mac, you never go back.’
Now I tell my friends the same. It has done what I planned it to do. I write more often and am no longer frustrated with my little iPad screen. I can use full webpages and have access to a wider selection of apps. Numbers and Pages come with the Mac computers and I have used them to their full extent, I’ve only had my Mac for three days.
With all that said I will go back to the impulse buy thing. Notice how I wrote out pros and cons of what I would use the computer for? The list worked. It won’t be done if you go and buy candy or make up or a bag of chips. This is what I do when I go out and buy something that costs more than fifty dollars. That’s a week of groceries. I consulted someone who I knew would give me an honest outlook on what I wanted and thought I needed. With the cost of living on a constant increase and wages at a standstill, impulsive buys can be devastating. Once your locked into a payment plan there are penalties when you back out of them.
Ask yourself, ‘do I need it or do I want it?’
Everyday People.
Smells of rich caffeine and baked sweets fuel the buzz. The click of the keyboard keeps in time with the blare of the music in my ear buds. A grey haired woman sits beside the chilled window fixed to the yellowed pages of her book. The misty air on the other side of the glass moistened the outside world. A man in a puffy black jacket pushed the door open for a woman with a small child in her arms. A smile and nod is all that was needed. The child eyed his mother with sparked curiosity.
Two woman raised from their chairs. Their conversation was to exciting to break although the one in a loose black shall inches toward the door. Smiles and laughs, in-between tight hugs. The woman breaks away with her head turned and eyes locked to her friend. They blows a kiss and waves good-bye before she dashed through the misty air.
People watching. Have you ever experienced it? Have you seen someone people watching you? I have.
I people watch. I don’t know if it’s something that a writer does naturally or if it’s the way I am. I could be deep in thought or stuck on a scene or when I’m with friends. I can be deep into my story and then I hear a strange comment that I didn’t expect and find myself watching those around me. The above blurb was me watching what happens around me as I write. I never tried to write what I see in a room full of people. To be honest it makes me a little nervous.
What if someone noticed what I was doing?
Still, my little blurb that I started with made me release how helpful it can be to boost ones writing. Countless things had happened that I couldn’t capture because I tried to think of the right word to use or asked myself did I capture that right? If I would have written, without thought, just my fingers and eyes in tune with one another the scene would have had a different feel.
People watching as a writer can be used to enhance the manuscript.
This is my own opinion. A tool that I have released after a while of dwelling on the distractions around me while I wrote. A child may laugh or an argument erupts, chairs fly and eyes dart around. Whatever it maybe, people’s actions give way to ideas, and with those ideas characters gain personalities.
And this is my little coffee shop thought. Thank you for stepping into my mind for a moment.
Have a wonderful day.